I AIN'T SCARED

CURIOUS BARACUDA

I ain't scared

This big boy decided to come up from the deep blue to swim right along side me.  I think he wanted me to take his photo!  He charged me twice but I wasn't scared.  He was just a bit curious.  It might have been that shinny necklace that was dangling from my neck engraved with "Greg loves you".  Whatever, he was just a bit curious and kept his distance as we both swam along the reef.

Island session part 8  (I'm not able to make it click on.  You will have to copy and paste it yourself if you want to watch.  Otherwise take my word for it!)  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5AbbxhsVjOM&sns=fb

When we left Florida at the end of September to avoid the hurricane maddness and to forget about Cancer for a whle, I set a windsurfing goal for myself.  Take 2:02 minutes of your time to see my goal accomplished.  I have been working on this crazy trick called a push tack for sometime now.  I'm really proud of myself for this achievement as little as it is.  I have to admit that the contrat between the moves of professionals Kiri, Youp and my aged self is obvious but never mind.  I'm tickled pink to have DONE it.  Maybe I should go now for that forward loop that I said I would never be able to do.  Funny thing I'm pretty sure I CAN do it.   Fear is the killer and right now I just ain't at all scared.

I began this blog while sitting on the plane ready to depart going somewhere I didn't really want to go.  The peace and beauty of our second home on Bonaire was just the medicine I was seeking.  We were there for 28 wonderful days with no real agenda and doing what we wanted to do.  No hurricanes here and I forgot all about stupid Cancer.

I had a fitness goal also escaping to Bonaire.  An easy one really in this environment.  My goal was to improve my fitness and be stress free.  We left just after the hurricanes where the stress level was at an all time high.  After taking 5 rounds of chemo ending in June I wanted to gain some muscle and endurance.  What better place to do that than on my favorite Island.

I'm grateful and fortunate to have this escape from my life in the US.  Here I can easily recharge, regroup and be ready for what comes next even though I'm not wanting to be where this plane is taking me.  Back to life in the States.

Currently, I am deep into my plan B.  August 31 was the date of my IST (Immune Support Therapy) infusion.  We have had 7 weeks to see if my body was able to fight off the bad cancer cells.  I stayed true to my ketogenic diet and since there is no stress on the Island I feel that my chance for good results are high.

SNORKELING GREG

Greg in the water for the first time with his new knee.  He ain't scared either.   Our trip to Bonaire was amazing.  So many years we have been going there and it never gets old.  We love it.  We miss it but I'm not scared.  I know we will be back.

We have been home now for 4 days and the results of my CA-125 are in and by the end of next week I will have the complete results of the test that goes to Greece for analysis.  My CA-125 was not the number I was looking for.  It actually went up from 97 August 31 to 155 October 23.  That's a pretty big jump so I've begun thinking about plan C while I wait on the complete results.

I have contacted Moffit Cancer Center hoping that they will have the T-cell trial available for me as did Dana Farber in Boston.  That appointment is not until November 15 so I have time to wait on the Greece results and see my local doctors here too.  Still covering my basis from all angles.  Meanwhile, I really feel fine, fit and having fun living life and loving my husband and my absolutely fantastic family and my crazy bunch of friends.  Because of the love around me I'm not one bit afraid.  Life is good and

I AIN'T SCARED